-- been too long pretending --

Oh well.. here i am for my first and proper post after so longgggg. Let me start with the usual, say ARMY. It has really been an eye-opener for me ever since i enlisted back in July last year. Seen many many different kinds of people from all walks of life. While some are your true friends, there are also some that are just worth hi-bye. BMT was probably the best time? I will never forget my buddy and the rest. It was an awesome 8 weeks and 2 days spent at Leopard Coy.

And came 22nd Sept 2009, i reported to OCS Warrior's hall for my in-processing to OCS itself. What an experience i will say for the first day. Buddies in Golf Wing was splendid, couldn't have been any better i would opine. As we all know, Change is the only constant in life; i was posted to infantry wing, Alpha for my pro term. 5 months with a total stranger, how about that? Just gotta swallow the pride in and adapt to life. Talking about winning a Sword, who doesn't want to win it? But i must say that i WAS ready to go beyond my limit to get at least a Sword of Merit. I WAS determined. Notice that i used the word WAS? Because all that fighting spirit in me just died. The fire just turns into smoke that blocked myself from my own goal. However i know that deep inside me, i wasn't giving my best in many things that i did. Why so? For a bigger purpose i will say. Seeing selfish people around me, just makes me feel tired of trying to fight to be the best. When i thought i had made a very good friend, i was wronged. Slapped right in the face. I choose to think, i am the fucked up one. I don't understand people and yet i want people to understand me. How selfish. At the current state, i really am speechless. But i hope that one day, things will be better. At least, that is what i really want and i am looking forward for that day. Hopefully i am not putting so much hope, Cos' like me, One tends to disappoint too.

On a brighter side, 22 more days till i commission on the 19 June 2010!! And for comms ball, arghhhhh, forget it. Alright i will stop for now. I'm getting sleepy! Dammit, the only thing i do when i book out now is SLEEP! fml.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/27/2010 07:18:00 PM

REVIVED AFTER CLOSE TO A YEAR OF SILENCE.

will update soon. more of a life lesson. (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/09/2010 01:24:00 AM