okay let me update for those ppl who always come here and get disappointed when there's no recent updates! haha! alright, so training was quite fun today cos we are separated into year2 and year3 per boat. so yeah year2 have 7 pair and we year3s had 5 pairs. like really wtf? and the worst thing is tt our year3 boat onli gt 3 left rower! haha! zai! so i very willingly go and sit at the left pacer with the president aka pong! cos the rest of the left rower too big to be a pacer. so there i go! and it was damn fun! the fun part is when we came from the back to be in front of the other boat. given tt our numbers are lesser and our left and right also not equal. BUT my left LATS is fcuking aching to the max. quite effective ah! now i think left and right lats balance alr! HAHA! okay so tmrw training is at 730 and after tt we (some of us) got the Nike+ Human Race! but we are volunteers to look after bags! cheesepies! $3 an hour! cheap labour!!!! HAHAH! and now i very tired to type alr and i fucking lazy to go on as my lats aching! so left rower, year 3, please come down for rowing eh! i lazy to paragraph so if u lazy to read den dun read! HAHA!

bulletproof loneliness!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/30/2008 08:34:00 PM

When being friendly and kind to others is taken for granted, RESPECT no longer exist in the dictionary. Use your EGO to give you the strength. NEVER use your EGO to bring YOURSELF DOWN. cos if you did, it will just make you regret and if you think of it again, you will feel retardedly dumb and stupid. Some will wake up and realize that whatever is said by each individual may just reflect about them or maybe the situation that they were in before? well, so pitiful that not all humans are born smart. some animals are even smarter. HAAAAH!

anyhow, whatever. don't mean to shoot anyone or anything. another thought of mine being shared. and IF anyone were to feel offended, i am so fcuking sorry, you're not pitied here. so just fcuk off!
thankyou!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/28/2008 11:45:00 PM

His name is FERNANDO HAI TORRES! (:
(don't be jealous, be inspired!) rofl!

okays been going to school for VPP! everyday 8 to 5! !@#$%$#^%%^&%%. 22 more days! to be exact 22 more weekdays! training resumed. boring and tiring. LOL! knee injury as usual. tsk! and best stalker award going around. it's not easy to get the award eh. needa go course one. LOL! anyhow, im very lazy to blog. cos ive been undergoing an extreme makeover session. (picture above). so you know, being a superstar is quite tiring. tsk!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/27/2008 10:17:00 AM

so there goes my weekend. just like THAT. yes like THAT you understand? ok whatever. apart from rowing on saturday which we did mileage and i died cos it's tiring and tt cos its a combine training! so you know mixture of yr1, 2 and 3s. weather was horrendous to the MAXIM ;) rain and shiny all after each other. so i had to rush home after tt to visit my sicked grandmother but apparently i didn't go as i was effing not feeling well too. nabeisx!

and the cheese pies thing is tt i was caught in the rain and i put my hp inside my bag and i was so effing wet and tired tt when i reached home i showered a little and slept the whole day till today. and i just ignore my hp for the fking first time. and guess what ppl? there goes my hp. it's spoiled. the lcd like got so many water. i was fucking amazed eh?! stupid crumpler! i think cos i never close the stupid bag properly. du lan times 4o8737892817918329!!!!

so i fcuking rot my sunday at home today. didn't want to meet kk and shaun at ps cos i was just plain lazy and i wanna watch soccer. haha!

now the worst week(SSSSS) is gonna start tmr! cheese pies! VPP for 5 weeks! 5 freaking weeks out of my 7 weeks holidays?! wtfbbqpizza! stupid final year project.
and i feel so fucking weak. just cos i never gymed or run today. :(
to my body and hair, PLEASE GROW! hahahahah! and to all the stalkers in the world, keep on stalking! LOL!

ciaoz to the MAXIM (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/24/2008 10:41:00 PM

now im starting to realise that some ppl around me just don't quite still understand me? but of course like i said, some ppl only. i mean understand as in really understanding your friends/team mates internally. i may be known as someone who is so cheerful and chirpy and bla bla bla but when it comes to affairs of the heart, not much ppl understand. i hate to try to understand myself too. i hate it when i missed her too very much when i know i can't do anything about it. the feeling is so hard to describe. does anyone understand? i really doubt it. i think the only "thing" that understands me is my beloved iSMALL and tt's my iPod. it plays the song in accordance to my mood which is usually emo and stuffs. it really just start to make me imagine stuffs and make me eventually more emo. well emo is gonna be my middle name real soon.

i just needed to tell you how deep have i fallen for you.
it's so deep that it's tough on me to climb up to the surface to see the real world. it's hard for me to move on knowing that i wasn't even given a chance to know you. to just at least know you? is it too much that im asking for? at least, i will not be as what i am now. is there someone, apart from you, that can make me smile. smile from the bottom of my heart. cos im tired of putting up a strong facade for so long. it's gonna topple very soon.

` if tomorrow never comes, will she know how much i loved her?

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/21/2008 10:38:00 PM

hi peoples! let's backtrack abitzx! went to SP on saturday for the Nike+ Human Race volunteers' briefing! ahem! im a volunteer okay! we almost get lost in tt school! pfffttt! lucky me gr and kk was smart! but not as smart as those girls tt followed us thinking tt we are very smart, they even followed us to the guys toilet! hahawtfbbqpie!

so studied for the past few days. memorised like one effing shit! and today was the paper! all i can say was that the paper was like $#%^&*(^%^%$!@ its like shitty tough! shall not talk about it alr. its damn irritating!

for now, i wanna get more TANNED, more TONED, more erm whatever!
HAHA! so heading to sch tmr for a good suntanning session!
weather please dun be a bitch!
thankyoucomeagain! (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/21/2008 01:19:00 AM

people! i will prolly blog next week after my exams! on wednesday or thurs! so carry on stalking!
maybe i will have some random short post.

like now!
i swear when i see YOU, i became stupid.
but when i see YOU, it makes my day.
BUT yet again it makes me emo.
cos i can only see. and just admire.
nothing else.
hope my last resort will work.
God please bless ME!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/16/2008 12:28:00 AM

can i be a lil emo for now?

emoEMOemoEMOemoEMOemoEMO!


she's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/11/2008 11:38:00 PM

This is gonna be an uber long post!
so get your coffee ready suckerssss. (:

firstly, i need to post about my dear friend, his name is N_ K__ K__NG! quite easy to guess eh?! btw, he is once named the PASSION BOY cos of we-know-what! HAHA! and than he turned out to be my friend, a friend tt gyms with us often. EHHH wait, did i mentioned tt he is also my MENTOR when i first came in ngee ann for orientation?! and HE is ALSO the ONE (okay, maybe abit -.-) tt brings us to CANTEEN 2 to let us get SCAMMED! i had the pasta there which tasted like GRASS! HAHA okay anyhow, he's one year my senior, EH ACADEMIC nia eh! BUT his bloody PSLE RESULTS is 195, when mine is 194! so he damn proud tt he was 1 year earlier den me when his score is 1 marks more! cheese pies! and we shared alot of cheesebyes things in the team, gossiping around, bitching is part of our daily routine yo!! anyhow, good memories are etched when he is around. NOW tt on SEPTEMBER 12, my BIG BOB friend is gonna get enlisted, ALLLLLL of us are gonna miss the BEAR! HAHA! let's have fun this coming BBQ dude! ANDDDD the main point of this post is tt, my friend here is already a freaking alumni of NPDB! cool shyyyy-attt huh?! so he has got an ambition now (after a disappointing COMMANDO one) OOPSIE KONG! (: he is now called "PTI-wanna-be-ALUMNI"!! HAHA ehh dun LOL okay! im sure this bear of NPDB will be as garang or not garang-er than the rest of the pussies PTI! okay la KONG, im sure you will be able to do it! this dream of yours! we will support you cos we are allllll... www.boysbitcharound.com gold members! haha! ME, MR HAI wishes YOU PTI-WANNABE-ALUMNI, ALL THE BEST! right about now, SUCKER! HAHA (: there you go, suchhhaaaa longgg post for you!


ALRIGHT!, in my previous post, im meant to be guai lan okay?! HAHA and i dun wanna be a guai kia like "you" can?! HAHAHA! you know who ahhhh! stupid stalker! OOPSIE! (: So today, i went to canoe with guan ren, chee kee, kong and wen wei. it was FUN. like totally! cos i cannot canoe straight! wtfbbqccb?!?okay lah, overall it was quite fun! though only 5 ppl. haha. yeah and note to self is tt i need to start studying! wtf HAI, study!! HAHA!
okay im dead tired, let me go and gossip around in msn already.
goodnight, boy girl, man woman, gay lesbians, stalkers!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/10/2008 09:39:00 PM

why wouldn't i get a girlfriend from a same sport?

i've always wanted to blog bout this, i mean like it's my personal view. some may agree while most won't. but i couldn't care a single shit. i said again, it's my opinion, correct or wrong, i didn't ask you to judge. so ya back to it, from what i think and maybe what i observe (like i say, i like to observe, just tt some losers may think tt im a blur bastard sitting there, so sorry losers.) i think tt having a gf or a bf in the same sports/cca or even the same grp or team, will be wonderful in the first place. yeah like why not right? since you can see each other asses and face wherever and whenever! but wait till the honeymoon period is over, till you get tired of each other and feelings start to fade and stuffs. mind you tt we are human, and greed is always part of us. you may like him or her but i show u another so called better one, that is it, you drool and you fantasize, like ya ya ya! anyhow, when things start to get worst, and especially if ur in a cca tt is a TEAM, which requires much working together as one, you will feel fucking awkward. okay maybe some bastards and sluts or bitches or what-so-ever will not cos maybe their faces are cemented with 319263183192 layers of whatever! but i think it's damn weird. cos when you guys face problems, you will turn to ur friend which may or may not be in the same team or cca, but most of the times, it is. and when tt happens, ppl ard you will know how much of a bastard/bitch/playboy/slut you are. So, do you like it? you like tt everyone knows bout the bad side of you? well, for me i will say NO. so what if im a bastard?! at least i don't affect much on my team mates or grp mates in my cca. at least i came there for my activities and tt's it. nothing much.

well people, if you or rather a handful of you get offended by this post, sorry im not gonna apologise cos i say what i want in my blog. you can just efff off! im not shooting anyone, but if you feel tt you're shooted, den it's just too bad, den for the gentleman u can go to www.bastardgotshot.com and the ladies, www.slutsgotshot.com

WHATEVER to the WORLD!
im quitting!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/08/2008 11:51:00 PM

okay lemme blog bout my wonderfully spent day at home today.
HAHA! first of all, i wanted to rest at home today cos i wanna study. yeah study babe! but apparently, i just stacked all my notes altogether and stare at it and i went back to sleep.
haha yes, sleeep! shiok ballssss!
woke up to watch the chinese show, den watch abit of the olympics opening shyyyattt!
it was quite awesome i must say though i was more excited on whether tt stupid stadium will collapose anot. LOL!
alright, so tmr canoeing was cancelled cos of the stupid national day!
what the pongzxs! changed to sunday some more. tts worse!
and now, i wanna do smth, which is SLEEP again!
not to forget listening to my emo(s) song before i sleep!
HAHA!
short one today cos im tired. yeah i also dunno tired of what!
what a productive day!
pfffft!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/08/2008 11:18:00 PM

se xyb ack!

went to school today at 2. meet up with the guys to have lunch at SIM!
didn't even stepped inside the fyp room. LOL!
if it's monday or tuesday den i will go in la! OOPSIE!
anyhow, gymed with kong and leroy today.
i feel so accomplished for following my exercise i jotted down.
and i feel damn tired cos it's chest and the back. HAHA!
market to eat, bus to home.
met darling inside bus! HAHAHA!
more catching up next week okay?! (:

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I’m going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I unknown along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/07/2008 11:46:00 PM

i shall reply my tag here (:

Zohan : you really know how to self entertain. HAHA! just like me!
SAM : What FOOL eh SIS?! LOL! it's a dream, you know sleep tt dream! your bf knows bout it!
Clement : yeah drive founded. gymed and swam twice today! LOL!
Novelyn : Eh CHIO-BU! wanna die isit?! my nose is only big in tt pic!! HAHA!

alright okay, had my final test today. it was a piece of shit. really. 50 mcqs are not so killing afterall.
wanna know how to tackle it? i did it in 15 minutes though! i read only bout 12 questions or somewhere there? cos the rest i dun even care to read and just anyhow tick! HAHA tell me im smart! come on!!
anyhow, i went to sun tan, gym, swim, eat, sun tan, gym, swim today!
like WOW! now im cui-ed to the super maximum please!
and the worst thing is im still paranoid la! cheese pies! okay whatever la.
anyhow, i got like exactly 2 weeks to study for my damn exam paper! -.-"
i wanna find a job leh. as in those part time one, just to kill my days, before the exams!
and to earn extra buckies! HAHA!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/06/2008 09:12:00 PM

okay peoples, stalkers, whatever whatever!
im gonna die. im super gonna screw my damn final test tmr.
its freaking 50 mcq-ssss!
its damn irritating la. i've not studied a single shit.
not at all!
tmr go there write name, anyhow choose choice, den DANG!
die!!! fcuk la. cheese pies!
and i lost my drive to gym.
i've come to a point tt "aiya you big so what, i paranoid nia ma. i gym so much aso paranoid i never gym aso paranoid." so ya fcuking sianssss!



people says dreams don't come true, but i choose to believe tt it will.
cos in my dreams, it was damn sweet. i even cried.
i just wanna hold your hand.
please give me a chance, will you?
my heart seems to beat very fast when i catch just a glimpse of you.
and i will think of you everynight.
one sided?
it's my last chance. i wanna hold you tight.

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/05/2008 08:45:00 PM

i call this boredom, others call it act cute! zzz!

alright, went to school today for the exam guides during lecture. headed to gym after tt with kok keong, den swimming after tt den eat den home.
simple day. but im fcuking tired.

okay i realised tt i got alot of stalkers can? like mainly from ahem ahem polytechnic?
oops. okay tt is all that i know from. maybe other poly students also read mine!
what i can say is that, if ur reading my blog right, yes YOU, im reading YOURS too! (:
cos if you is stalker, me is stalker too. YAY! -.-

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/04/2008 10:30:00 PM

looks like im not going to the gym today. -.- okay but im gonna play with my pathetic 6kg dummbell at home! cutting jiu hao! if i nv do any shits i will feel damn nuaaaaa :)
i need to study. and holy shit, after stacking the notes together, it looked like a dictionary la!
how the hell can i rmb all those shitsss?!??! EFFFF!
i shall stop looking at my bed in case i sleep again.
so i shall look at my laptop but shldnt i be looking at my notes instead?
okay damn boring.

we are the members of the cao meepok!
loyal and upright we will be!
for those who have not tried meepok!
we cook for you so you can eat!
we are meepoks, we are meepoks!
we are nice and delicious!
all the pork and the meat mixed together,
we are the cao meepok!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/03/2008 03:31:00 PM

oh ya ppl, i forgot to mention smth. at the awards night, when its time for the reception, me and clement was busy looking for the damn plate so we anyhow just go to a table to look for plate. and here comes a girl with her companies of friends, saying, eh u wanna cut queue ah? den i damn stunned. and i said no i was looking for plate but she insisted tt i actually wanted to cut queue and said smth like u wanna cut queue den u say la. or smth like tt if i dun rmb wrongly. anyhow im kinda shock. haha. cos its actually damn funny. i wasnt like angry or smth cos firstly she's a girl, (!!) secondly her tone wasn't rude. so ya whatever. but in the end i didnt eat a single shit at all. must be she finished the whole food there ba. OOPSIE! (: she must be a ngee ann student i supposed!

okay back to today. wake up and wanted to go canoeing at kallang with the rest but my freaking lower back pain like one roasted cb! okay i dun even know what a roasted cb feels like. but im sure it sucks. so i had my breakfast. after 45 mins i slept back from like 930 to about erm 530!? HAHA! it's freaking horrendous of me la. sleep until like the whole world is dead! and now im fucking awake. give me something to do la! shit la. tonight i gonna watch all the movies on my laptop alr. i think im watching P.S I Love You again! tt show is really fab. (:
im gonna gym tmr! please dun give me any problem u stupid lower back! anyhow i haven started studying. okay i know i only got like erms ONE exam paper this time but i still gt final test on wednesday! so fucking annoying!

i feel like i got some thing big to do. some thing to accomplish. but i don't know what it is.
all i can think about is you. yes only you. fate is being just a lil too cruel on me. i dun want you to get the wrong impression of me. like seriously, when coincidence is just too much of a coincidence, it might not turn out good. haiz.

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/02/2008 09:11:00 PM

huddows peoplessss! welcome again to MR HAI (: 's BLOG!! okay whatever.
yeah i was freaking tired to blog yesterday due to the busy schedule! or to put it in a nice way, im just plain lazy. but hey im tired okay! lol.
and so ytd had our final year project panel review. good or bad?
im not to sure about it myself. but well things to note is tt this VPP i gotta do lotsa shit for the project so as not to let tt fking panel shoot us like free! (and worst thing is tt he is a noob in programming himself!) nowonder ask so much. wtfbbqccbknn!! okay so one shit down for this semester. whatever grades we or rather individual of us get, i cant say much. cos i think they will "know" who do the most things. and stuffs. okay whatever. cant bother much.

later part of the day was the Awards and Appreciation Night. in short was the COLOURS AWARD!
got my full colours plaque -.-" its so heavyyyy! bitcher!
the scarf given to us was fun! haha okay its rather gay la actually. but we took some crazy shots with it. okay only those in the full colours award briefing. haha.

and today, right now, im lazy to go to school as ytd i trained leg and today i walked like an old ah ma like tt. cheese pie! but i wanna gym. cos im paranoid, yes im always paranoid right? so whats the surprise? HAHA.

work on those guns HAI.
i can do it!

HAI left the world of darkness on 8/01/2008 12:45:00 PM