Life and Care. I was being random at www.dictionary.com and so i decided to type them out. There were too many answers for me to like copy it out. We live in this world once. It's a principle i live with each and everyday. I do what i want, i love who i want and i care for whom i think might deserves it. But too many a times when in life, i made a little too many small mistakes that might lead to a major upset later on. Falling in love with people i know i shouldn't and stuffs like that. But feelings; it's not something which we can control. It just happen.

Do we, small little earthlings in this world practise what we preach? Or do we even some times take a minute out of our seemingly busy schedule to think of something/someone that may need our care and concern? Has that person been showing you much care for you and what have you done back to him/her? Some times a simple Thank You and a Smile, will brings us to a long way in the future. But if we choose to ignore and just be oblivious to it, we might not feel the pain the one caring is feeling. And then it is time to ask ourselves again, Do i want to be treated that way? Am i choosing the people that i think should be caring for me? To me personally, i don't think that is right. It does not kill to care for others, But i will say, if you cared too much, you will get disappointed. For not everyone in this world think exactly the same. Similar i will say yes, but not exactly the same. If everyone were to think the same way in this planet Earth, there won't be this 2 letter word name, IF. And once again, that's life.

This is a relatively long and wordy post. I don't know who and how many people are reading my blog actually. But if you are reading this very line, i supposed that you have already read the chunks of words above. And for that i Thank You with a Smile. I must learn to start opening up and that may do me some good in a way or two. Let me just end this by saying, how many times actually in our life, do we really sit down and ponder about the ones around you. Like really about every single one. Cos i'm starting to do that, and i realised that i've cared too much for some people that it became oblivious to them and that some people, or rather we human beings are bad at practising what we preach.

Take care people. Life may sucks, but if we just take that extra little effort to ammend it, it may just be beautiful. Worth a try :]

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/29/2009 12:48:00 AM

Finally another chapter ended. It has been a wonderful 3 years being a Ngee Ann rower. All the ups and downs, the problems, the happiness, the glory, the downfall, the bittersweet of a team. It all comes to and end. The name of "Champion Batch" will always remain in every each of us. Coached by a wonderful, inspiring, motivating, never-say-die-spirit, Both Ah Huat and Wilson has guided us well. A very BIG THANK YOU to them. As the saying goes, the only constant in life is change. And every beginning has its ending, while every ending is the beginning of something new.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/27/2009 07:25:00 PM

me and wen wei. what can i say about this guy!? hahaha. he loves torturing us. but it's for our own good.
train hard shawn! (: shot 1.
shot 2 with shawn.
shot 3 with shawn. but still, train hard. haha! (:
me and kee chuan aka Tuna! i will see you July 13 in a place called TEKONG! HAHAHA.
me and PUI HONG. hahahaha! (:
me and vege boy! shot 1.
shot 2.
shot 3 and he look so gay.
okay dun flame me, me and Trey took lots of photo due to the camera being so blur and this is the best shot i think? hahahaha! and this FAVOURITE JUNIOR is and always being a fucker. What's new? hahaha. Train hard Trey. Don't let words from others bring you down. =]
another shot.
one more.
with the vege boy and trey.
they seems amazed by my long wooden paddle. LOL
okay one more with my strongest junior. WHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
with khai hung. keep bugging me to take photo. so yeah only one photo will do! hahaha. all the best to you! (: and this picture is diff from the rest cos he edited it. im not so free to do so. hahaha!


Okay this is mostly pictures with my few juniors. Didn't manage to take photos with lots of them too. People like DAMIEN dunno run where. IDOL (weijie) dunno also go where! den many more suddenly like run awayyyy. hahahaha! I will upload more photos with my batch of ppl when i got the picturessss. =]

And as for now i need all the strength for tomorrow's duel. (water trial aka PK). Wish me luck readers! (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/25/2009 06:23:00 PM

yes, it's not bus number. If i didn't remember wrongly it should be 52 days before enlistment. Kinda looking forward to it. (am i speaking the truth? God knows).

Tomorrow, okay today, will be the day where i will be officially graduating from NPDB. It feels sad to be leaving. 3 years seems to past damn fast. Wonderful memories i will say. There is no escaping from this exit. Every Ngee Ann rowers that had survived for 3 years, will have to go through this painful exit. But it's the flow that we have to follow. For i know, i had done my part in making history for this team. Be it good or bad ones, it will still be a beautiful picture paint in my mind.

Alright, will blog again tonight or something when the pictures are up up uppppp! Hopefully i can really take alotttt of pictures cos there is training before that. And training is always tiring, like it is supposed to be. So no complaints. (:

On a happier note, i must thank Chee Kee for helping me get the crocs! THANKS ah! I can't wait to look like Ronald (Susilo) NO!? Ronald McDonald i mean. Cos my Crocs is RED CAR-RER!! (colour! -.-)

Bye to whoever is reading. (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/23/2009 02:15:00 AM

it's been some time since i last update. Sorry. But i'm busy training. (: i just feel the need to rant so that it will be kept as a reminder for me. That i need to train even harder. Being in a very competitive team is really very stressful but at the same time a wonderful experience. I really can feel myself wanting it so much. Every time i dropped in rank i will feel damn disappointed. But there will and never will be a sympathy kinda thing. This is a men's sports. Simple.

i feel a sudden weakness in me. I need some motivation. Ironically, for myself.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/18/2009 12:04:00 AM

2 months plus before i enlist. somehow i wished it was earlier. i know its ironic given tt my last post i was ranting about how fast it suddenly is gonna be. Oh well, the only constant in life is change. Thoughts change, the sky changes, people change. I want to have a new lease of life. Im tired of life as it is now. Feeling empty. And at times, this emptiness is really killing. There's only so much i can do. Things don't go the way i want it to be. Certains things are just beyond our control.

I've been longing for that happiness, once again. Watching the one you love, loving someone else certainly sucks.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/07/2009 01:18:00 AM